Last week, director, actor-director Mahesh Kothare released his memoir Damn It Aani Barach Kahi. He admits that after the launch – which was quite an extravagant affair – he is “a bit relaxed”.
Mahesh reveals that although he thought of writing a memoir, it was his son, actor Addinath Kothare and others who convinced him to “write down the 60 year journey”. “It has been quite a journey. I entered the film industry in 1962. I’ve seen the black and white cinema, the color film and now the digital one. So it was very necessary that there was some kind of documentation of that,” he adds.
When writing a memoir, the often-expressed concern is about the sanitization of the story. After the release of several memoirs, the choice to pick and choose certain events in one’s life has often been identified as a concern by readers. Point this out to Kothare and he nonchalantly replies that he’s gone “all out” with this. “I didn’t draw a line, I didn’t hide anything, I talked at length about every situation, every film of mine, all the internal difficulties in our family,” the director of Zapatlela 2 shares.
The hardest part of writing an autobiography has to be the drive one has to take to the hard knocks of life. During the conversation, the 69-year-old talks about such a phase. “I have seen many ups and downs. But there was a stage where I plummeted to the bottom and crawling back was difficult. When this part was written I wanted my exact emotions to come out as I was dealing with huge insults and slander at the time. I had already decided then that I would not respond. This was in 1999. I made a Hindi movie Lo Main Aagaya – that was a big mistake, a big disaster. That period lasted a long time, almost 15 years,” says Mahesh.
He talks a bit more about the phase and shares: “That period was tough for me. When I wrote about it I wondered how I got through and survived that period. There was a time when I had no roof over my head. We sold our house to get out of debt. So it had to be written as it was. My son was in his college days and we even had to get admission into MBA. That was a very difficult situation. But my son, he was so understanding, he never demanded anything. I did my best not to have any effect on him and the family.”